Today first day at Charcoal (Shatec's training restaurant). Starts work at 3pm and the feeling was back to one year ago when i work at Sage. The heart was so heavy. I doesn't feel like going to work, i doesn't feel like taking the LRT nor the train. Its like this feeling is hunting me back. I kept on telling myself "I am not going that scary place anymore" but the devil kept on popping inside my head it's like i just can't get rid of it. I seriously don't know whats wrong with me i feel like slapping myself and wake myself up!! The thinking in my head is driving me insane and it was to that extent that i felt really lost. I really don't know what's is going thru my head now. I just want to find my way home. I want to be happy, be truly happy.

Where were you again?